When I act up, act out, forget, repeat myself, become agitated, tread on other’s boundaries, swear, become confused, act bewildered, fall asleep with my clothes and glasses still on my body and face respectively, slur my words and talk slowly - especially late at night, wander in mind and sometimes in body, begin to speak in the middle of thoughts instead of at the beginning of them, can’t seem to understand what others are trying to tell me, lack the insight and empathy I once prided myself on having for the feelings of others, get mad for reasons no one seems to appreciate - much less understand, and did I mention forget?

I’m not clear there is a difference between the two. I’m not sure even if I knew, I could remember the answer. And if I knew and remembered what different it would make in my life. I’m pretty sure it is the wrong question to ask. I’m pretty sure I should do more of what I said I was going to do more of the day I was diagnosed. I’m real sure I should practice what I preach.

Live in the moment. Enjoy today. Ask for help. Be more open with others about how I feel and what I am thinking. Don’t look back to see what I have lost. Discover and use what I have today. Let tomorrow take care of itself. Trust more. Love more. Forgive myself and stop expecting others to be more like me than themselves.

Is It Me or the Disease?

It’s both. I’m both. I’m neither. I’m me! “Hello”

Richard